Hello. . .

How did I get to this point … to be sitting here at 10pm on a Thursday writing my first ever blog post?

I guess the answer is lots of smiles, laughs, hugs, tears, fights and tests.

If 4 months ago someone had told me I would be keeping a blog I would have laughed (I know, what a cliche saying but it is true).  I didn’t have the time for that.  I was working like crazy, trying to maintain some sort of social life, and just trying to stay on top of day to day life.  I was happy… or at least I thought I was happy.  Some days I would give anything to go back to that life, but other days I am thankful for what the awful experience of having cancer has done to me.  Obviously it has changed my life, drastically, but it has also opened my mind to so much more, taught me about myself and those around me, and brought depth and meaning into my life, things I didn’t even know I was missing.  I actually feel more sorry for the person I was 4 months ago for thinking that was living than I do for my current self – the one undergoing chemotherapy for brain cancer at 23.

The purpose of this blog will be discovered as I go.  I know it will be therapeutic for me to be able to express myself – openly (something with which I struggle greatly), informative for the family and friends who read it and hopefully it will bring some clarity to both myself and The Firecrackers in my life.  If you don’t know what I mean by my Firecrackers… you clearly shouldn’t be reading this!

I look forward to learning, growing and exploring…